Nocturnity

whoa where the fuck did this year go.

2009-12-18T05:47:40Z

YAY FOR ME BEING TOTALLY UNRESPONSIVE.
Sorry about that.
Still losing my mind, just in case you wanted to know
Dyed my hair Red, trust me it looks better than it sounds lol.
Why is this year going by so fast, it doesn't feel real at times, it's pissing me off.
If I hear one more thing about Avatar being epic shit, I'll go apeshit
Cant find my favorite hoodie.
Doing a 20 page paper...yay
I feel like a fucking hermit ...man, its like I haven't seen daylight in forever
Nocturnal ftw.

yeah.

love you still <3

did you have a good thanksgiving?

2009-12-02T06:22:56Z

well I did
but there was NO GRAVY
WHATTHEFUXATHTHATSHIT
:-|
:D

Finding solace in a winter mornings breeze.

2009-11-22T10:52:37Z

What baffles us beyond the universe is our inability to understand its colossal size and its complex mechanics. To imagine the size of something ten million times brighter than the sun or sixty-five thousand times the mass of earth, It makes your brain hurt doesn’t it? Well I think about it way too much.
Okay so anyway I'm seriously losing my mind over a variety of things including college, friends, weather, forever. I honestly don't know why I don't make much of an effort to make friends, it's hard for me I guess I'm definitely not a social butterfly. I like being alone, in fact I enjoy it very much however once in a while it would be nice if I had someone to talk to. I mean I love my friends now but none of us take each other seriously and it's hard to talk about anything seriously so it's kinda awkward when we try to. Someone who likes the same music as I or someone who will be a total nerd with me. ~~Forgive me but I think it's this redneck town I live in~~. Whatever I'm tired and I need sleep and I need to finish shitloads of homework. So maybe I'll be ok for now.

peace out pig snout.

Happy Halloween everyone!

2009-10-31T09:58:53Z

Hope it's fun and safe and you eat lots of candy

-superoriginalpost-
I know haha

Scaryshit since it's Halloween and everything. RANT LOLS

2009-10-25T02:49:08Z

Say what?

It is true! I still live. Hehe, I really do love fall, although I miss the fall leaves and chilly weather, it's hot as hell in fl! srsly. I love halloween since I love horror, but it's alright. So I went to busch gardens howl-o-scream last week and WTF there were so many people, I mean really? We only got to ride two things and do two haunted houses, last year we did more I think? Idk, but we waited over an hour for one haunted house. I mean really? really? WTF I hate people. haha it was fun though. Excuse my bad grammar I know it's all over the place and shit but idc, I'm simply bursting with excitement right now for no reason. I swear it's that medium pep-upper smoothie I got from Smoothie King.

Anyways anyways kupo, I've always wondered why some people deny the existence of certain things even though there is credible evidence that it does exist. Say such as extraterrestrial life, I mean there are alot of bullshit conspiracy theories out there but there are many many credible accounts from sane people. I mean people who say it doesn't exist are the ones who aren't sane in my opinion. So thousands of people decide to see the same thing or describe the same things even though they're hundreds of miles apart? Oh! They must be insane because people just become utterly and suddenly insane when they claim to have had an encounter of any kind. I really do wonder if they deny it because they don't want to believe because it scares them or they are just extremely religious. I'll never know and honestly I don't care but I do think it's funny. Anyways yeah that fourth kind movie comes out soon and it looks awesome. Mostly because it is true. Not scary? nah.
I really don't get scared by clowns, ghosts, gummi bears or any type of thing except for one. The Universe is simply my biggest fear. The size is incomprehensible and unimaginable. We can't see beyond the particle horizon of the observable universe and for all we know, is it could go on and on forever. I don't even understand how something has no end. If the universe does go on forever, does that mean that there is no beginning and all this has been an endless cycle for so much more than numbers can describe. To think that we are a million times less significant than a grain of sand in the sahara desert is scary. Honestly if the universe has no end, then how is it possible that we are the only life forms here. Theoretically speaking, I honestly think that it has no end, but I'm usually wrong and to be honest we will probably never know. Even if we become more advanced with our technology I doubt there will ever be a way to measure how vast and large the universe is. The truth is humans are small and insignificant to this place, I know I'm contradicting religion and what all my friends say but I really don't care I'm stuck in between science and religion it's like Whatthedoublefuck. Ok it's official I don't even like thinking about it because it scares me. Does it scare you? probably not. Is my fear irrational? maybe. idc NOW MY BRAIN HURTS

NCIS, fail, bleach spoilers and the end of summer.

2009-09-23T15:36:48Z

So did you watch NCIS last night? probably not but WTF it was like all awesome and stuff. It made me squeal with fangirl glee.That's not the point though I just felt like telling you it's an epic way to start off the 7th season, I mean like EPIC. So yeah I guess I've gotten my life back together somewhat, I'm still sleeping in though lmao, not much has changed except I'm in love with Arizona green tea now. Oh and I've been playing Final Fantasy Dissidia like alot because that's another thing that makes me squeal with fangirl glee, I was insane the day I bought it. My psp is shit though, It only works plugged in now D: So yeah I know I'm so interesting with my totally interesting journal. Well in any case summer is over, NOESS. Officially, but I'm really excited for fall, and halloween and candy and leaves, although we don't get fall leaves here because it's florida and florida sucks. I read the spoilers for the new bleach chapter this morning and all I felt like saying was WTFKUBO? 2 super epic characters in one chapter? Is that a new record? lol, but you know I still love bleach, I try not to complain too much, but stark and halibel? Well that lasted. So now that the espada are on the brink of extinction leaving Yami and Grimmjow? I hope we go back to HM, like soon because I fear there is more WTFery ahead. I have alot alot alot of school work to do and not much time. I am the biggest procrastinator I know, ~~Did i spell that wrong?~~ So yeah I'll write something that's actually interesting when I think of it, which will be like never, unless something epic happens, which is unlikely with my luck but I love you still?

<3

So tell me Darling.

2009-09-06T10:00:01Z

I honestly can't sleep to save my life, I haven't been

sleeping at night, actually I've been sleeping all day and working at night but that's not the point. I guess you could say the school year was off to
an uneventful start. Well in any case I've been behind a bit in everything, I'm trying to catch up and my sleep schedule isn't helping one bit! I've also been listening to BoA alot, she's awesome and pretty lol. I've also been downloading lots of ebooks, man those are awesome, I have so many interesting things to read now! lmao. So what's the point of this update? to tell you I'm still not reading your journal but your reading mine? Nope, it's a somewhat sincere apology as to why I haven't been commenting. I need to get my life back on track and I'm not even sure how long that will take, so SORRY.
lmao creepers

<3 me

Schoolwork, ah yes! schoolwork

2009-08-25T07:05:28Z

So exciting isn't it?

I have so much work this year, omg, it's insane lol. Anyways I'm taking some classes online too, which is sweet because I can work ahead and anytime I want.
Anyways I always have these bizzare dreams that seem so real, and all of them are based on catastrophe, the future or the end of the world. Kinda sorta depressing stuff yes? I mean it's almost so real, when I wake up I'm like wtf. Anyways I dream really bizzare stuff? Do you? or is everyone elses dreams about running, falling or getting eaten by a monster?

I'm into hot women like Sienna Miller :|

2009-08-09T04:46:04Z

Long time no speek yo.

So yeah I'm soo sorry I haven't been reading your journals and commenting lately. alot has been going on and I've been everywhere and geeez! the summer is pretty much over. School starts monday, what a bummer lol, summer seemed so short. Anywhos I went to the vans warped tour with my friend and I had tons of fun. I saw all the bands I wanted to see, except for a couple like 3oh3, which we missed because our feet hurt and I was too lazy to walk. It began to rain about 7-8pm like really hard but I stayed just to see bayside. It was so worth it. By the time it all ended, my legs hurt so bad from standing and I was starving. Yeah so I had fun that was on July 26th but I do make the same mistake every year. I always buy the lemonade which costs like 7 bucks and it's not cold and it tastes like warm piss. It doesnt even taste like lemonade, I said the same thing last year wtf. I also made the mistake of not wearing sunscreen and I was sunburnt like hell including a tan line from my sunglasses that is just now beginning to go away. So I'm actually getting stuff done now. it's great
Did you see the burn notice summer finale ? XD epic pwns? y/y? So psych started and I missed it last night, I guess I'll watch it online. I'm going to fix my sewing machine and do some work soon. I still don't wanna be here when the world ends and hopefully it won't be during my lifetime.

That was totally random lmao.

There was a time

2009-07-25T05:02:12Z

When I felt alright, when I felt featherlight, when I was alive, it wasn't too long ago, but already that feeling is gone and dear, I miss it like crazy. I miss the noise, the way I lived and the music I centered my life around. I misstti being crazy feeling awesome because I just met my favorite band. letting the rain hit my face when I'm not supposed to be outside. Does it always hurt this bad? I guess some songs just trigger good times, and all good things must end, apparently, but then again life entirely hasn't ended yet, but will it soon? I hope not but I'm still not as happy as I used to be, trust me. I'm happy but not as it used to be. Darling I wish you were here.
Warped tour is this weekend, I think I'll have lots of fun so I shouldn't worry right? I'm just going insane although...
I demand you to go listen to Owl City's Ocean Eyes, it's an incredible album, it makes me feel so good, i feel as if my heart's about to burst with sea water. candy and sunsets.
I miss you too, by the way,

well that's all for now

summer's almost over. :[

gmala;njgar;jv

2009-07-10T05:58:33Z

Sup bitches?
So yeah my birthday was on the 29th, it was great! I got a playstation 3, haha it's about time I also got candy and random stuff.
My life is totally boring I know. My brother hurt his hand so me and my mom have been in Tampa for like 4 days. I'm glad to be home though

definitely a true update when I feel like it.

:D

nymph haha.

2009-06-14T01:35:52Z

oh

What type of Fae are you?

PASTAAAAA!, Burn Notice, Royal Pains and some other random crap.

2009-06-12T03:35:43Z

Ok so, I think I love royal pains, it's like just a really awesome show. You know though, it's not as awesome as Burn notice, burn notice tops all haha. I want pasta really bad. So yes, I got a playstation 3, for my B-day, lol early present. I was playing bioshock lmao.
Ok, It's official my life is boring as hell, that's why this journal entry is made of suck, I think I really need something to do around here, I mean seriously? All my friends have jobs and cars, and I'm still lmao jobless and carless. get on it! Sheesh, I'm just angry right now and extremely tired.

so yeah. BORING.
haha.

<3

so I've fallen in love with axis powers hetalia?

2009-05-29T01:28:19Z

Okay so everyone's like watch this and watch that do this do that. Anyways I keep seeing this whole thing about Axis powers hetalia and I decide to watch it. The episodes are only 5 minutes but it's so adorable :D Like supyou er adorable. you know the kind of adorable that makes you wanna spin around in circles going NYAHHHHHEEE! :| So yeah thought you should know of my new development :|
Anywho, now that I'm completely off from school work and crap I'm going to catch up on some much needed anime, lord knows I haven't really watched anything other than bleach lately :| my computer is rather slow so I prefer youtubing it lol or watching it on a site. downloading eps takes about 20-60 minutes D:
So now all i need is to go to the beach

btw I saw Terminator salvation, omg it was good but not that good lol. Sam worthington is super duper hot btw :| lol
lots of explosions and fun stuff.

love you

Y halo thar.

2009-05-21T04:59:03Z

Eh, Summer is almost here!, for me anyway. I know alot of schools up north don't get out until like June something, that must suck D: well my birthday is in a month. woohoo, not really though, last year everyone forgot about it, it was depressing lol. So basically I've been watching CNN all day, and seriously? People are having a fit over the idea of bringing detainees over from Guantanamo bay and putting them in federal prison? I mean seriously? Come on, there are criminals a million times worse, than these guys. Really there are, so it apparently endangers america, because americans support terrorism somehow. WTF :| The news just makes me angry anymore, and makes me realize how idiotic we can be. Anywayyy I haven't seen Angels & Demons yet or Star Trek D: I fail, I'm going to see Star Trek this weekend though. It's been raining the last couple of days and It's made me quite happy, seeing that we need the rain and that I love watching the storm approach through the window. I've yet to see a waterspout yet, even though I've lived here since 2003, but it's really cool how when it's windy and rainy the water goes across the harbor, like sand blowing in the wind, idk lol.
well I'm working on art...still. I don't know

<3

random, bleach 219 and ch 357 spoilers

2009-05-13T03:21:28Z

Starting out with some lame recapping of previous episodes. Well anyways it moves on to findor, talking talking, fighting Hisagi getting pwned. Findor taking out his epic imma eat you claw and then hisagi is like ima pwn you with my sexy kazeshini. So yeah.
Well normally the animation is usually shitty lol, but honestly props on this one, it was great, this whole damn episode was great minus the recap stuff in the beginning. so 10/10 for this one. oh so 357 spoilers. Death breath lol, so Soi Fong asks Omaeda to cut off her arm? hmm. I feel this is going to get interesting and Hitsugaya gets hit with a chunk of his own ice? good. it serves him right. uwahhhh

I'm really hyper right now
love you

twitter

2009-05-03T17:48:34Z

since everyone else has one I made one too

http://twitter.com/kaz3shini

Oh honestly

2009-05-02T13:57:44Z

I'm sick, I hate being sick I feel like death and I look like death. I want some damn Ice tea.
grhreofiejf
I'm glad my laptop is fixed though, it works like new :D

well love you
<3

i can haz fixed my layout?

2009-04-18T03:44:16Z

Yes, My header is now Suzaku and Lelouch. cute eh? I thought I needed a change anyways.
So everything's been alright except the fact that this year has been my shittiest school year ever. guh! summer school is going to suck! I can't believe how much I've failed this year, it's like really bad. I'm a terrible student, but just to let you know that doesn't mean I'm a terrible person. Teachers can think that because one has lower grades they apparently are a punk, badass, alcoholic or just completely stupid. Don't get me wrong not all people think like that but to be honest alot do. I'm going to see Fall Out Boy this wednesday, the believers never die tour par deux. You know they had a believers never die tour before. I kinda miss going to an actual venue to see them not some big arena haha. I'm also excited that 50 cent will be there, seriously random like when Paul Wall was on the Honda Civic Tour '07. It's 11 something, I want Green peach tea and something to do.

So, anyways I don't like the new bleach opening it's like wtf!, captains looking epic + creepy dancing + matsumoto showing up to stand around randomly, but what's even worse is that the ending is cute, but the song is hideous. OH and don't get me started on this weeks bleach chapter, I mean WTF Kubo, I can seriously deal without the 0-9 thing and Yammy being the size of texas, you better have something EPIC up your sleeve. Well it's not so bad after all, I wanna see Hitsugaya get seriously pwned though.

almostsincerelyme.

I'm pretty sure no one reads these.

2009-04-14T01:51:51Z

prettyfcknsure
and I don't care either, whether you read or not I just keep this journal as a reminder of all my failures within the past three years. and so on.
I do read your journals I promise, I just don't comment because I'm lazy, very lazy.
so yeah, what's the point of this entry? there isn't one.

I'm bored
tomato

so yeah. . . this is pointless oh and bleach 353

2009-04-13T04:17:16Z

lolol
SAY WHAT. Oh yeah there’s a totally sexy color spread of Matsumoto, Orihime, Nel and Rukia in bikinis.
Nel’s boobs > Matsumotos in this one, and Rukia looks out of place amongst the epic boobage.
I’m still grasping the concept that Ulquiorra is dead, gone, not a character anymore. I’m so hoping that Kubo won’t pull some bullshit and bring him back from the dead, if he does that I’m so done with bleach, not really, I can’t live without it. So with that being said the chapter begins with Ichigo returning to normal and his spontaneous “instant regeneration” the hole seals itself up. Is this the trickery of true plotkai at work? Hmm. As Ichigo is returning to normal there is a few couple of panels of Ulquiorra. You can tell from the look on his face and the following panels of Orihime seeing if Ichigo is alright I thought of this as maybe Ulquiorra understanding the heart and so forth. Anyway when Ichigo gets up one of the first things he does is ask Orihime if she’s alright. :D Then there’s Ishida sitting in the ground with the sword still in his gut and Ichigo asks him if he stabbed him, Ishida simply replies calmly, seeing that he wasn’t mad at Ichigo at all. Ichigo then inquires that Ichibeast was in fact not Ichigo himself and he wanted to finish the fight fairly, asking Ulquiorra to cut off his arm and leg as well so they can fight fairly. Ulquiorra agrees, but his time is up anyways and he begins fading away. Ichigo refuses to finish Ulquiorra off and yells this isn’t the way I wanted to win. In the last few pages Ulquiorra says he has begun to gain some interest in them. He then asks Orihime if she is scared of him and extends his hand. She replies no, “I’m not” and extends her hand, as she moves closer Ulquiorra begins to turn into dust. Thus ending the epic fight and the death of Ulquiorra. –Sob-

Notes.
The only reason I enjoyed this chapter, was the touching Ulquihime moment at the end.
In the end anyways, it seems as if he finally understands humans and perhaps the “heart” maybe not entirely but enough to make it alright.
So yeah I didn’t really like this fight or the plotkainess to it. Whatever, I say whatever.

Anyways spring break is this week. It went by way too fast and I wish I had more time. I totally dread going back to school.
.

Ever feel like you’re the mutt out of a pack of purebreds?

2009-04-04T04:23:18Z

Yeah well that’s exactly how I feel right now, as if I’m just kind of there. Sure, people talk to me and whatever, but it always feels like I’m so distant from everybody except the few close friends that I have. Ah it’s like I want to spread my wings a little bit more and get new friends but something is always holding me back. Am I too shy? Or Am I crazy? Ahh, I always have no idea what I’m talking about seriously. I just go on and on cause I’m pissed off for some reason. I can’t wait for summer, or at least spring break. I’ll get to sleep and do nothing, which I love to do.

I guess all these issues come into my wordplay somehow, on how I have a love for violent things, and a lust for blood, because I know you’ll take those words so literal. Is that why I chase everyone away? Violence and colors, yeah, that’s what I’m trying to say. I guess this is ending a terrible way, you’re even further from figuring me out and I intend to keep it that way.
-Oh yeah this week’s bleach chapter OMFOGMOGIMEOG nice, Ishida. Ichibeast stabbed your ass. I am tired of the lust titles though

ブリーチ ch 352 spoilers and April Fools！

2009-04-02T00:20:14Z

本当に幸せだ！

that Haven't had any jokes today so far :-| ,

ichigo lookin sexy yes plz
So yeah wut, srsly I wasn't expecting this.
Starts with Rukia, Chad and Renji, doing their thing, Somewhere it rains Yammy and he says he's going to kill that four-eyed bastard [if ichibeast doesn't kill him first] People have a spazz attack, "whut wuz thet, is thet yew icheegoe" The scene changes as we switch back to the fight and we see dead Ulquiorra is apparently not dead, but he's missing like various parts of his body :D As Ichibeast goes to finish him off, Ishida stops him, saying that if he continues he won't be human anymore. Ichibeast stabs Ishida in the stomach and Orihime says something other than Kurosaki-kun. Orihime tries to stop him verbally but it doesn't work and Ichibeast intends to kill Ishida with a cero from his horns, all the sudden, Ulquiorra comes from BATSHIT! out of nowhere and takes of one of Ichibeasts horns and folds another,ああ驚いた we end with an explosion over Ichibeast's head.
So, my thoughts on this are quite evident, HOLYBATMAN!, WTF, dead Ulquiorra was supposed to stay dead, apparently not. Helping Ishida? wow, nice, at first I saw it as Ulqui seeing an opening and tries to defeat his enemy, but now I'm starting to think otherwise. I'm also beginning to think Orihime is actually going to do something useful in the next few chapters. I'm really hoping she will be the one to help bring Ichigo back, if not I'm still fine. The sooner we get him back the better. Is Ulqui not going to die now, if he hasn't already from that last explosion? tell me? Orihime needs to stop relying on Ichigo. I'm kinda hoping Orihime gets injured physically at some point, that sounds so mean, she's been through so much mentally, although not much physically thanks to Ichigo and peeps. I'm really excited to see how this all pans out.
So yeah,　さよなら、for now

because, it's all I know how to do.

2009-03-31T00:13:12Z

I've got half days all this week :D, then on friday I'm going to Tampa!
I'm so glad it's almost spring break, I can't go anywhere though, I'm just sticking around here unfortunately unless one of my friends magically invites me to do something fun. School is alright, it's an easy week, no stress for me, I have to finish this yearbook cover by tonight though, ugh. So yeah, not much going on, welll nothing exciting anyways.
I need something to do, help me out

So yeah

2009-03-30T03:22:24Z

Ever heard of 阿部真央　「abe mao」, well if you haven't you should check her out, she's pretty awesome

here's her myspace

Okay so anyway today was alright, I slept the whole damn day away and I still feel crappy. What the hell is wrong with me, I still feel as if everything is falling apart. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm just so stressed out right now. I think I need to take a very long break from life hehe, I'll post something interesting later, I promise.
<3